Thursday, September 29, 2005
how do you cope when
the one you love is with somebody else
and theres nothing you can do about it
how do you deal with
the fact that you had a chance
but you chose to turn away for your career
i gotta take it though its heart-breaking
its something that i had to do
but nobody said that it would hurt so bad
so how do i live
how do i deal without you
ive got fucking high fever
my brains are gonna get burnt as well
HA HA
m e l i s s a ;
4:57 PM
Wednesday, September 28, 2005
looks like the sick virus
has attacked me too
like yay ?
how lucky
whatthehell
its weird how
i suddenly fell sick
was like frowning all yesterday
till my lecturer had ta ask me ta smile
had this fine dining thing
with the class
was not too bad
did evaluation fer basic theory today
good thing i passed it
had a very terrible headache
ohwells basic theory test
october tenth
so cant wait
ive got no idea what ta type
like spell out my life here
speechless to that
cause im life-less
m e l i s s a ;
8:04 PM
Sunday, September 25, 2005
why do people need labels for
why bother stating an identity
when its all fer the sake of doing so
what for give a status
for it doesnt mean a thing
why classify people according to who they are
or what you see em as
is there even a need
why has life gotta be this way
and not how we want it to be
why must it be so unfair
why things happen when you least wanted it to
why when you loose something
yoy wanna fight so hard fer it ta come back
yet it just drifts further becoming outta reach
if lifes meant to be this way
why do i still wanna go the other way round
why do i like fighting fate so much
why the most imperfect things became perfect
why do people chase a trend
cant you fix one yer own
isit wrong to stand out from others
why must people be the same
why do people fight to be perfect
when nothing is
no one is
m e l i s s a ;
9:50 PM
you are too much fer me ta handle
yesterday was
orange partner's birthday !
had a pretty long day
woke up kinda early too
got a small portion of work done
went ta holland
then ta town
and to my cousin's house
stayed there fer a long time
i think twentyfour hours aint enough fer me
i need more time please
schoolwork is piling higher
all the way from two weeks ago
cant seem ta sit down and do it
it sounds retarded
but i asked my form teacher
how many modules are we allowed to fail
she said depends
one is okay you still can be promoted
and i went yay
im so gonna fail hers
my classmates think i was crazy
whatthehell
true what
she would fail me eventually
m e l i s s a ;
1:34 PM
Thursday, September 22, 2005
the oc third season ish out
ive got the first episode
and im getting the second
so much fer not getting assignments done
m e l i s s a ;
1:31 AM
Wednesday, September 21, 2005
been on this page fer the past half hour
i still dont know what ta type
and i decided i shall not blog
so not in the mood fer anything
go away
m e l i s s a ;
11:58 PM
Sunday, September 18, 2005
i have my reasons fer certain things i do
its just a part of me fer the way i react
take it as the other side of me of which
people dont see and take it fer granted
sad ta say i am still a living person
though one whom had lost her feelings
towards anything or anyone around her
still i aint transparent here
be that way if you please
shall i not be concerned by what took place
did i ever see this day heading towards me
prolly i did but with a much different outcome
frankly speaking i lived past that period
whereby i need ta tolerate such attention
that of which has already far past my era
this is not directing onto anyone
and i am not finding faults here
not happy with me then dont read
its just a genaral something
get this clear and stop bugging me
ever heard of retribution
i believe that one fine day
things will take its turn
so seriously stop being ridiculous
stop wanting things going yer way
and having everyone else listening
it down right makes zero percent sense
plus if you really think this is right
then so be it cause im not bothering
if you choose to ignore then i would too
please stay outta my affairs and my life
thankyouverymuch
i say no word of regrets
but stop asking me bout this day
shall i not breathe a word bout it again
m e l i s s a ;
3:21 AM
Monday, September 12, 2005
the post number sixtyfive
its not the words we say
nor the length of conversation
its the company we shared
thunder lightning and rain
till this very day
i still hate the rain
excluding walking under it
what a day
so much fer starting of a new term
i only stepped into class
fer barely few minutes
and off i went
still in the holiday mode
or was it an excuse fer being tired
or was i just plain lazy ta sit in
okay i just didnt have the mood
and still it was an excuse
spent two weeks of holidays out
not a single day home at all
work catching up parties fun
all in just two weeks
what more could i ask for
yesh i could say i was happy fer once
it was fer me a rather good holiday
take out those replacement classes
definately a conclusion of memorable times
and it all just aint enough
but guess i couldnt have asked fer more
zai wo de shi xian
you yi ge mo hu de guang mang
zhi yin wo zhui xun
xin li de meng xiang
mei yi tian
wo xu yao duo yi dian yong qi
guan kai wo de xin
rang xin xin neng ji xu
wo zhi dao zhe lu cheng yi ding hui hen jian nan
bi xu mian dui zhe yi qie bu guan duo lei
m e l i s s a ;
7:48 PM
Tuesday, September 06, 2005
weekend was more than usual
spent it working over at suntec
was pretty alright
not too bad i must say
americas next top model
it totally reminded me of school
with the pronounsation of words
how our teacher used to stress the importance
so that we wont make a fool of ourselves
whatthehell
im into the last week of holidays
i would treasure this week mans
should i be dreading school again
i seriously aint looking forward to it
so much fer hating it ler
im still thinking bout that hows life question
i cant find my answer to it
cause i cant seem ta figure out
whats really going on the whole time
dont you think that when youve been asked that
it makes you think whats really happening and all
rather has it took a turn fer the better
or fer some the worst
and truthfully speaking
i still cant feel a thing at all
smiles were just put up fer show
m e l i s s a ;
12:46 AM
Thursday, September 01, 2005
didnt want you to see me fall apart
i stood at a corner looking at you
and saw the past replaying and it felt so right
i knew from then that you were the best i ever had
im like burnt now
classmates were laughing at me please
due to the red-ness aiyos
so yeahhs
didnt go back stc
cause i didnt intend to
and no reason fer me to
went ta sentosa yesterday
which explains the burns
my goodness its painful
but i kinda like the skin tone
its like reddish brown
think kaye ish worse than me
at least im not alone in this mans
went by starbucks after that
then headed back home past eight
completed my work
was on the phone till four plus
with my classmate
she was so nonsense
had ta go back school today
needed to hand in assignments
skipped the replacement class
doubt many people were there
simply cause it was super boring
got home awhile ago
my face hurts
tian
im gonna work tomorrow
and the whole weekend
hopefully it'll be fun
hehs
anyhows
end here then
seeyas
m e l i s s a ;
5:36 PM
