Saturday, August 27, 2005
i think the later i sleep
the weirder dreams i get
gawd i just broke the record
breakfast lunch and dinner all together
plus staying home today
like yeah
m e l i s s a ;
8:23 PM
guess the character is not important
just that person we play the role as
who cares if it is fer real
maybe its just one masquerading another
has it all took a turn
was it just the faces we see
so plain and simple on the surface
yet complicated on the inside
does it portray the real side
or just a facade
is love really a huge part
in everyones life long journey
rather than other things in life
learn ta paint those colours
of this black and white picture
its just another untold story
questions without the answers
the road in front is blurred
i cant find my way no more
smiling is just the way out
ohwells
cut it all up
im out
m e l i s s a ;
2:33 AM
Friday, August 26, 2005
i saw yer face in a crowded place
and i dont know what to do
cause i'll never be with you
thinking bout before
and smiled
the love
and candy kisses
i never thought i could be feeling this way
standing here in front of you this perfect day
its hard to imagine where tomorrow will lead
i'll keep this moment in my heart fer eternity
m e l i s s a ;
1:01 AM
Thursday, August 25, 2005
i lose my way
and it's not too long before you point it out
i cannot cry
because i know thats weakness in your eyes
im forced to fake a smile a laugh
every day of my life
my heart cant possibly break
when it wasnt even whole to start with
because of you
i never stray too far from the sidewalk
because of you
i learned to play on the safe side
so i dont get hurt
because of you
i find it hard to trust
not only me but everyone around me
because of you
i am afraid
-yawns
sleepy sleepy
lest night i was trying ta sleep
but i stayed awake fer a long time
slept and had this dream
was rather weird i guess
ohwells
just did my figure drawing
its not fully done
we need sixteen pieces
and i only have twelve
i cant draw already
it's so hard lar
shes gonna grade our work
damn
ob the brighter side
its two days till term break
heck the replacement classes
im freeee
yayness
right right
nonsense me is gonna start
talking nonsense
shall turn in now
goodnight
the past
the present
not the future
lifes been a torture
m e l i s s a ;
4:12 AM
Monday, August 22, 2005
when you try your best but you dont succeed
when you get what you want but not what you need
when you feel so tired but you cant sleep
stuck in reverse
and the tears come streaming down your face
when you lose something you cant replace
when you love someone but it goes to waste
could it be worse
lights will guide you home
and ignite your bones
and i will try to fix you
and high up above or down below
when youre too in love to let it go
but if you never try youll never know
just what youre worth
lights will guide you home
and ignite your bones
and i will try to fix you
tears stream down your face
when you lose something you cannot replace
tears stream down your face
and i
tears stream down your face
i promise you i will learn from my mistakes
tears stream down your face
and i
lights will guide you home
and ignite your bones
and I will try to fix you
; fix you by coldplay
i lurve that song please
been hearing it
and it's goodie
well well let's see
i only went fer two hours of lecture
and skipped the rest of it
was tired and yeahs
no need fer the excuses
lunched and came back
gotta hurry with my work
or tonight i dont need ta sleep
end here
takecare
m e l i s s a ;
7:18 PM
Thursday, August 18, 2005
Of all the things ive believed in
i just wanna get it over with
ears form behind my eyes
but i dont cry
counting the days that pass me by
ve been searching deep down in my soul
words that im hearing are starting to get old
it feels like im starting all over again
the last three years were just pretend
and i said goodbye to you
goodbye to everything that i knew
you were the one i loved
the one thing that i tried to hold on to
i still get lost in your eyes
and it seems that i cant live a day without you
closing my eyes and you chase my thoughts away
to a place where im blinded by the light
but its not right
ever read what yer hororscopes are daily
and did you really believe what you read
do they tend to appear fer real
and does it speak what you are going through
is life meant to be just that way
in a way like as though its predestined
frankly speaking i dont believe in such things
nor in fate or whatever that comes with it
i tend to work against them
and tell myself that it wont be that way
or how others think it would turn out
i change the way things go around
well if you do believe in it then think
does it mean everyone with that same horoscope
lives on that same fate
kinda weird aint it
cause it never seems that way
but on the other hand i hafta agree that
these sayings just seems so true at times
and i cant help but believe it
/was some random thoughts
yeahhs
anyhows
theres this stc alumini thing
at stc this saturday
ten in the morning
mrs suppiah asked ta go
so ex theresians try ta go
and this question goes
can we even enter
wonders
end here !
m e l i s s a ;
12:47 AM
Tuesday, August 16, 2005
you can take it all away
i dont need it
underneath i'll still be the same
you can take it all away
i dont need it its not me
you can take it all take it all away
i'll still be the same
; take it all away by ryan cabrera
heard this over someones mp3
nice one
what a monday
started way at ninethirty
only ended at six plus
totally slacked the whole day
combined lectures are simply boring
i was in the world of my own the whole time
the group of us were chatting
and snapping photos ta pass time
initially wanted ta leave the class
but skipped the idea
instead being late fer every lecture
cause theres like breaks in between
lunched at coffee club today
pretty good
parents are going away again
to hongkong this time
and i'd be stuck schooling
so yucks please
shall be off now
clear up a lil bit more work
then off ta bed
it's been a long day
sigh
bye
m e l i s s a ;
12:07 AM
Saturday, August 13, 2005
and it may take some time to
patch me up inside
but i cant take it so i
run away and hide
you're just the best i ever hadcan i just start complaining
and grumbling
i cant stand it larhs
really lor
having a bad bad headache
fer the whole supid day
sighs
i dont know lar
everything just totally sarks
yesh literally everything
well in short
ihateschool
it farking sarks
ohwells
goodbye
m e l i s s a ;
1:12 AM
Friday, August 12, 2005
the person on the other end
just wont wait
feeling so lethargic
no mood fer anything
school freaking sucks
woke up late
good thing dad sent me
or else i think i'd skip class
was damn tired
and totally no mood
parents came back
from austrailia the night before
they are in the naggy mode
mum bought this sill sign lar
the ones you see at bloomington
her sign is about mums rules crap
my mother is so biased please
this is called retribution
i shant say anything
creative zen neon
what do you think of it
im so into jazz now
dang
off now
m e l i s s a ;
12:25 AM
Thursday, August 11, 2005
now my life is just a rainy day
and iloveyou so
how much youll never know
youve gone away and left me lonely
if only you were here
youd wash away my tears
the sun would shine
once again youll be mine
but in reality
you and i will never be
cause you took yer love away from me
girl i dont know what i did ta make you leave me
but what i do know is that since youve been gone
theres such an emptiness inside
im wishing youd come back to me
oh man
i like semi done with work
im just gonna get the rest done tomorrow
afterall i foresee a redo again
so why complete everything
ive lost the interest in drawing
damn tired already
something hit me whilst doing work
and like i lost concentration
damn it okay
okay just not talk about it
im tired of this kinda thing fer now
it resulted in me doing my work this slowly
look at the time
ive got barely four hours of sleep
theres an early class tomorrow
stupid man go have make up lesson
i'd try ta sleep now
hopefully wake up in time
goodnight
goodmorning
whatever
sighhs
m e l i s s a ;
3:51 AM
Wednesday, August 10, 2005
alamak
im still stuck drawing
lost interest in it
my work is still
no comments
tomorrow sure die please
tonight no need sleep
its funny how my drawings are
like crooked
no no slant one side
no balance
damnit
m e l i s s a ;
11:26 PM
; fire works !
more pics later on yeahhs
homework
darn
m e l i s s a ;
2:23 PM
suddenly shes leaving
suddenly the promise of love has gone
suddenly breathing seems so hard to do
why do iloveyou
dont even want to
why do iloveyou like i do
like i always do
been a long day today
morning was rather draggy
plus the weird weather
headed ta town
bought some thing from there
raffles city ta collect things
marina fer fireworks
the glimpse national day parade
lastly ta tiong fer a lil while
then back home
fireworks were great
i loved it please
it just made my day
it made me
smile
rather some other things did too
but that was really nice
it weird how things go sometimes
it may just be one of yer best days
and then it plunges down from above
leaving you so lost and alone
an unexplainable feeling came crashing at me
i wanna know what will happen if i end today
without a word
m e l i s s a ;
1:23 AM
Tuesday, August 09, 2005
going random random random
im simply so not in the mood at all
kinda weird why this happens sometimes
even keeping myself busy aint helping
cause half the time the mind wonders off
its rather tiring ta keep going on this way
lifes like totally meaningless
cause everydays the same old thing
thoughts thoughts thoughts
i wanna get my mind of things
but i cant seem ta run away from them
i dont know if its right doing this
or should i be doing that instead
feeling all so mixed up and lost all of a sudden
though the roads ahead are unbloacked
it feels as though im stuck here
i cant seem to move away from anything
just running away from the faces of truth
what people see is just the other side of me
speechless sometimes on how life moves about
people come in and out of yer life
you dont know when are they taking their leave
or when are they gonna re appear again
having said as a part of life but is it what it is
or is it just some excuses people tend to give
sometimes i dont know how ta get on with life
its just a mystry what tomorrows are like fer me
and to think of it im actually afraid ta find out
i wont know what am i gonna expect out of it
its a wonder how i tend to enjoy surprises
but not whats coming outta life
life is just an unexpected thing
simple short quiet unaware lost a question
you may think would i even live till tomorrow
truly speaking i kinda hope not to
eventhough ive not been through much
but frankly speaking ive got enough of what i had
and i just i wanna stop here
the memories are already sufficient to hold on to
m e l i s s a ;
2:21 AM
it's never too late to relight the fire
it's never stopped burning for me
the flame it never died inside of me
how is it now that i can tell you i love you
how is it only now that it's too late
what can i do
the love that we had is torn in two
so you take the smiles from all of our years
i'll take the tears
okay so i skipped school today
wonder who turned up fer class
it's freaking lame ta go
cause we hafta be there at ninethirty
having some talk fer two hours
then break fer five hours
and class till sixthirty
see see why should i go right
thats besides the point
well yeahs i get an extra holiday
my brother isnt well
he waited fer me ta get home
no wonder he was rather pissed at me
you know when one isnt well
the moods really bad
and he just got back from the doctors
today i went tanning at chevrons
and to the gym as well
was pretty good to work out
went to charlenes place
ta get some materials fer work
stayed there fer quite some time
since there wasnt other plans
and now im real tired
thinking if i should get homework done
save my arse
ive got loads to complete
sigh
m e l i s s a ;
12:40 AM
Sunday, August 07, 2005
che check it out
clickit belongs to charlene and myself
yeappps
m e l i s s a ;
11:52 PM
Saturday, August 06, 2005
morning morning
im so tired please
hardly had a wink of sleep
my eyes are missing soon
my goodness
im so gonna die
i hate this feeling
been thinking too much maybe
ohwells ohwells
m e l i s s a ;
10:03 AM
Friday, August 05, 2005
seems like just yesterday
you were a part of me
i used to stand so tall
i used to be so strong
your arms around me tight
everything it felt so right
unbreakable like nothing could go wrong
now i cant breathe
no i cant sleep
im barely hanging on
here i am once again
im torn into pieces
cant deny it cant pretend
just thought you were the one
broken up deep inside
but you wont get to see the tears I cry
behind these hazel eyes
i told you everything
opened up and let you in
you made me feel alright
for once in my life
now all thats left of me
is what i pretend to be
sewn together but so broken up inside
cause i cant breathe
no i cant sleep
im barely hanging on
; behind these hazel eyes by kelly clarkson
lets leave school aside
workload stress whatever
at least fer the time being
ive been thinking bout it the whole week
its time i have my mind off it
afterall my minds set bout the semester
anyhows its the long weekend
thats five straight days of holidays
monday is a self proclaimed holiday
its not that i dont wanna go
but yeah
reasons aint important
cause having a break is more important
was with my classmates after class
sat at tcc fer quite some time
saw wenny tiff ash mel
headed to town
got my hair cut
two of my classmates too
got back bout eight plus
the whole of stc is doing flag day tomorrow
and it so reminds me of something
the time i did mine
it was darn comical please
well well
tired ish da word now
end here
takecare
m e l i s s a ;
10:31 PM
Thursday, August 04, 2005
oh yeahs
naima is the winner of
this seasons america's next top model
yayness
and they missed out one season of the show
ohwells
work work work
seeya
m e l i s s a ;
10:06 PM
theres an army of lovers dying to meet you
dying to make your acquaintance
it could be you or it could be me
so dont let go cause I need you so
; army of lovers by lee ryan
schools like shit
sarks like i dont know what
yucks please
i dread going ta school
homework
homework
homework
stressful can
crap larhs
damnit
it's pure torture
m e l i s s a ;
9:29 PM
do you believe in love at first sight
tell me does that book that your reading
tell the story of your life
do u believe in love at first sight
should I walk on by turn a blind eye
to love love at first sight
; love at first sight by blue
lost of words
m e l i s s a ;
11:46 AM
Wednesday, August 03, 2005
even when youve paid enough
been put upon or been held up
every single memory of the good or bad
faces of love
dont lose any sleep tonight
im sure everything will end up alright
you may win or lose
but to be yourself is all that you can do
mel's coming over ta get work done
and im one quarter done with mine
it's okay cause ive completed the ones due this week
the rest are fer next week
and ive only got two days of school
yay ness
oh and i rememebered yesterday
my new colour and graphic lecturer asking us
why we took up fashion merchandising
and my answer was like
no reason
i think he was so gonna box me
so he concluded after asking everyone
those who didnt really like this
or have no interest
or like no choice then study this
will either not do well
or dropout
like yeahhhs
i got no comments
ohwells
back to work !
meeting the one and only egoistic person laters
yeapps
m e l i s s a ;
1:37 PM
Tuesday, August 02, 2005
hey mister
please mr dj
tell me if you hear me
turn the music up
i was like half dead the whole time
everyones been asking me why
my answer to them was simple
tired
excuses but whatthehell
parents are going away tonight
and im already gonna skip school
thought of what i wanna do
better than be at school
m e l i s s a ;
8:22 PM
Monday, August 01, 2005
you had a bad day
you're taking one down
you sing a sad song just to turn it around
you say you dont know
you tell me dont lie
you work at a smile and you go for a ride
you had a bad day
the camera dont lie
you're coming back down and you really dont mind
you had a bad day
;
start of a new month
four more till the year ends
got to school early today
classes today sucks big time
so farking boring please
i didnt unederstand anything
went home straight
was tired
got back home the first thing i heard
my mother told me my granduncle passed away
was really tragic to the cause of it
he lives in indonesia
im not that clase to him
but he is still a relative
and i know he cares alot fer us
it was really sad
sigh
life
m e l i s s a ;
8:23 PM
